Hello Friend

Good morning Kara,

How are you? I was cleaning out my room yesterday and I found some old drill pictures! I'm going to scan them later and post them; they make me happy. You should see Marc's hair in them, it's ridiculous!! I hope you're doing well, I still miss you everyday. I realized that the unreal feeling of you being in heaven may never go away, but I want to say that that's a good thing or at least find the good in it. Oh yeah, Laurie gave me this book to read called, 90 Minutes in Heaven. I'm only about 40 pages in but it makes me emotional. It's about a guy who gets in a car accident...WHOA WAIT...i JUST remembered my dream this instant!! Okay I'll try to stay on track here haha.. Well he gets in an accident, they call the time, while they clear up the accident a gentleman prays for him and he comes back to life after having no pulse for 90 minutes. In those 90 minutes he goes straight to heaven and lives to tell his story. The images he portrays are amazing, I'm happy heaven is that glorious. The book really tugs at your heart.

Kara this week I had a dream that you came back to life after your accident. I don't know how I feel about it yet. As much as I miss you so much everyday I feel like you're in a place of unmistakable and unending peace and you deserve that. I'm always so torn when I think about you being gone. I'm always trying to be okay with it, but a big part of me will never be okay. But I know that from heaven you can do an even better job of staying in touch with everyone like you did on earth. I have a better picture of where you are now and it helps to know that it's more than most of us can ever imagine.


I love and miss you,


Chris

Vegas

Hello Dear Friend Kara,

I'm going to your favorite place tomorrow...VEGAS! Remember when we were randomally looking at flights during work and found that there was an available flight to Vegas AND Hotel for under $100! But we'd have to leave that weekend and we were too chicken to do it. Not even spontaneous. Ha! We'd always say next time...next time...Man! We shoulda went! Oh well, I'm glad I got to spend a bunch of Vegas trips with you. You always took care of me whenever I had a headache and accompanied me while I played my Monopoly slots. You were one of the few that witnessed "Olympic Gardens" night!! XXX haha!

Oh I miss reminiscing those times with you. I miss your laugh, your smile, your hugs, and your ability to drink like a sailor! I looked up to you! I'll never forget the good times we shared.

...there's an open seat next to me if you decide to come with...

Love you and Miss you bitch,
Len

Kara *Sigh

Hey K

So lately, I've not been able to sleep very well. I haven't even been taking my naps like you know I usually do! Ok that's a lie..most of the time I don't get a nap. Haha..you know how I need my rest. I miss you all the time, especially at night. I miss getting to call you late at night when I need to talk to someone...like at 3am like I used to. I called you the other night and it went straight to voice mail. I always didn't like it when you turned off your phone. Anyway, I wasn't expecting anything...I just wanted to hear your voice.

I don't know how else to say it. I miss you. Plain and simply, I miss you. We've been busy throwing together your party this weekend. I can't wait. I hope that you would be happy with how it turns out. I think you will.

Thanks for stopping by once in a while in my dreams to let me know you're ok. I love you forever.

-B

Live. Laugh. Love.

I miss you making fun of me and me making fun of you. I miss playing video games. I miss taking jokes too far. I miss being overly considerate of each other. I miss eating mozzarella balls and tomatoes and longanisa with vinegar with you. I miss taking pictures of you. I miss getting ready to go out with you. I miss your motivating messages.

I miss talking to you. I miss iChatting with you. I miss dancing with you. I miss laughing with you.

Most of all I just miss YOU.

Yesterday Laurie and I were talking about when people's "time" comes. And I believe that you did not go before your time. You lived such a FULL life, but I very selfishly want you back. Please don't ever appear to be any further than you already are. I like feeling that you're still everywhere, everyday, visiting everyone. I know when we meet again, it will be the most amazing reunion.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I hope you laugh hard today!

Goodnight <3

Weee Missss You!!!!

Hey Kara,

I'm at work right now. I can't concentrate because I'm thinking of you because it was just last month when you passed...My calendar still says June 2nd on my desk. I don't want to move on. I wish I could just start June 2nd all over again. I come in to work thinking that it's the morning of June 2nd and wait til I get off and hope to hear your voice when I call you to see if you want a drink! I have your picture on my desk and I look at it all the time. Oh Kara...

It's really nice that all the relationships I have with people have gotten way stronger but that still doesn't fill the void in my heart. It's nice to spend time with the girls, but I just can't believe what we're planning prayers and events of your passing. Never in a million years did I ever think that this would happen. Nobody did. God works in VERY mysterious ways. I just can't believe it. I don't want to believe it.

My co-workers are playing rave music right now. I hate it. But I could just picture you dancing crazy cause only you can make raving look cool.

I'm going camping with my family. Wish you could join us! My family misses you too! Hopefully you'll come visit us at the campsite. It's in Pacific Beach. Maybe we can go clubbing afterwards? Every shot is for you girl!

Love love love love love.

Miss you like crazy..

Hey Kara, 

I'm having one of those moments where I just really wish you were here to talk to.  I'm having a sleepover with Aidan at my parents' house right now, but he's the only one sleeping.  I miss you so much.  I just want to talk.  Or even lay around in silence together.  I just really miss you.  I hope you have a good day today.

I love you so much,

Chris

P.S.  I love this picture of us.  It's one of many from that night. The series of pictures captures exactly how I would define "us."  I love you.