Dear Kara

Something I wrote on Dec. 13, 2009 while I felt your presence around me...

Dearest Kara,

Wow, even though I didn't plan for anything this new year and stayed home sick... you were the first to wake me before midnight and say "Happy New Year Diane". It's amazing how spirit beings communicate through telepathy. Well this is a new year, full of hope and new adventures to come... 2010 wow. How did we manage to get here?

Letting you go has been the hardest part these last few months, compared to getting in front of all our family and friends and giving the eulogy and crying in front of so many people there. I even made Uncle Junior cry, which he later called me a jerk for making him do so! And watching Missy and Donna cry made me break even more. Watching your dad, mom, and brother all cry so hard... I know there is a reason for everything, in everything there is a lesson. The lesson here is that Grief and Loss teaches the heart to expand even further... It teaches us that death doesn't break those bonds in love. Love is never forgotten, lost, or stolen... it continues. It is eternal, steadfast, and healing. There is never a shortage of love. Love is all around you. Love is the highest vibrating energy... it travels faster than the speed of light. Losing you was like losing a part of my being that decided not to work. But I didn't lose you. I know you are still with me although I cannot see you now, I still feel your energy around me and through me. Love does not end... If it is real, pure, true in its form - it never fades. True love never breaks or leaves. I miss you, but I know we'll be together again soon.


Loving you always,
Diane