Hi Again K!

Dear BF

Hi K. Usually when I write to you it begins, "I miss you. I feel like I haven't spoken to you in such a long time!" Usually, we'd say this only after a couple days of hardly speaking. Sometimes, I would just be outside of the room at work and you would be inside and you'd write me an email! This time, its been more than three weeks since we've spoken. I miss getting your emails, your texts, your phone calls, voice mails and visits Kara. I miss you.

You've always been the one who was there whenever my heart was breaking for whatever reason. You always made sure to check up on me and see if I was doing OK. You were strong for me when I couldn't be. You always supported me. It was always you. Now, my heart is broken into a million pieces and I know I have to be strong on my own now. I know you want me to be. I'm trying every day.

I've rarely seen you in my dreams. Since I was the last person you saw, I know you have more people to visit other than me. Like you would always say, "don't worry about me." I know you're busy getting used to heaven and all. You are always with me anyway, whether I see you or not. You are everywhere Kara. We are all reminded of you every day, even stupid little things will remind us of you. Remember when you used to carry salt packets in your wallet? Or put more salt on top of ketchup? I got a catalog of all scrubs today at work..we don't even need scrubs! When I hear a good song, I think "Kara would like this song. I should send it to her." There's a cat that always hangs out under my car and it freaks me out--you'd feel the same because you despised cats (even though you LOVED Hello Kitty). The Tour de France is coming up and Lance is racing! We rode your favorite Soarin' at California Adventures on Tuesday. All your songs play on the radio..over and over again--you know how you liked to play out all the songs you liked. I talk about you all the time to everyone! Sometimes I talk to you like you're there..maybe I am going crazy. Ha..I don't care.

Well Kara--your family, all the girls and I miss you very much every day. Please know that we will always be there for your family as we were always there for you. Have fun up there for us because down here its just not the same without you. I hope you've seen my Lolo up there...be friends since you're both new in town. Maybe you can help each other out. Well, "this is getting long enough." This isn't the last you've heard from me. "You're stuck with me." Love ya K!

-B