Dear Kara

Something I wrote on Dec. 13, 2009 while I felt your presence around me...

Dearest Kara,

Wow, even though I didn't plan for anything this new year and stayed home sick... you were the first to wake me before midnight and say "Happy New Year Diane". It's amazing how spirit beings communicate through telepathy. Well this is a new year, full of hope and new adventures to come... 2010 wow. How did we manage to get here?

Letting you go has been the hardest part these last few months, compared to getting in front of all our family and friends and giving the eulogy and crying in front of so many people there. I even made Uncle Junior cry, which he later called me a jerk for making him do so! And watching Missy and Donna cry made me break even more. Watching your dad, mom, and brother all cry so hard... I know there is a reason for everything, in everything there is a lesson. The lesson here is that Grief and Loss teaches the heart to expand even further... It teaches us that death doesn't break those bonds in love. Love is never forgotten, lost, or stolen... it continues. It is eternal, steadfast, and healing. There is never a shortage of love. Love is all around you. Love is the highest vibrating energy... it travels faster than the speed of light. Losing you was like losing a part of my being that decided not to work. But I didn't lose you. I know you are still with me although I cannot see you now, I still feel your energy around me and through me. Love does not end... If it is real, pure, true in its form - it never fades. True love never breaks or leaves. I miss you, but I know we'll be together again soon.


Loving you always,
Diane

Kara,

I really missed you last night. I couldn't sleep. So I made this. I know, I'm crazy. Sorry not everyone is in it, I don't have everyone's pictures. Anywho, love ya! Still thinking about you alllll the time!

-B

Hey Love,

i'm sorry I haven't written to you in awhile. I've been so caught up in my new job that I haven't made time to write. I started training last Monday and you know I would've called you when I got off to tell you all about it. I really wish you'd pick up. Of course I got super sick after my first day and you always have the comfort that I need, but I still feel you here. I'm convinced that I won't ever believe that you're gone. That emptiness just doesn't seem to escape me. I hate feeling broken when I think of you because I know that you fill such a special part of me no matter where you are. There's so much I want to tell you. I finally went to u31 last week and I now understand why you loved that place. The music was good and I know you would've had a blast with us. I miss you so much. I hope you have a great day in heaven. I can't wait to see you again =)


Love to love you,


Chris

Hello Friend

Good morning Kara,

How are you? I was cleaning out my room yesterday and I found some old drill pictures! I'm going to scan them later and post them; they make me happy. You should see Marc's hair in them, it's ridiculous!! I hope you're doing well, I still miss you everyday. I realized that the unreal feeling of you being in heaven may never go away, but I want to say that that's a good thing or at least find the good in it. Oh yeah, Laurie gave me this book to read called, 90 Minutes in Heaven. I'm only about 40 pages in but it makes me emotional. It's about a guy who gets in a car accident...WHOA WAIT...i JUST remembered my dream this instant!! Okay I'll try to stay on track here haha.. Well he gets in an accident, they call the time, while they clear up the accident a gentleman prays for him and he comes back to life after having no pulse for 90 minutes. In those 90 minutes he goes straight to heaven and lives to tell his story. The images he portrays are amazing, I'm happy heaven is that glorious. The book really tugs at your heart.

Kara this week I had a dream that you came back to life after your accident. I don't know how I feel about it yet. As much as I miss you so much everyday I feel like you're in a place of unmistakable and unending peace and you deserve that. I'm always so torn when I think about you being gone. I'm always trying to be okay with it, but a big part of me will never be okay. But I know that from heaven you can do an even better job of staying in touch with everyone like you did on earth. I have a better picture of where you are now and it helps to know that it's more than most of us can ever imagine.


I love and miss you,


Chris

Vegas

Hello Dear Friend Kara,

I'm going to your favorite place tomorrow...VEGAS! Remember when we were randomally looking at flights during work and found that there was an available flight to Vegas AND Hotel for under $100! But we'd have to leave that weekend and we were too chicken to do it. Not even spontaneous. Ha! We'd always say next time...next time...Man! We shoulda went! Oh well, I'm glad I got to spend a bunch of Vegas trips with you. You always took care of me whenever I had a headache and accompanied me while I played my Monopoly slots. You were one of the few that witnessed "Olympic Gardens" night!! XXX haha!

Oh I miss reminiscing those times with you. I miss your laugh, your smile, your hugs, and your ability to drink like a sailor! I looked up to you! I'll never forget the good times we shared.

...there's an open seat next to me if you decide to come with...

Love you and Miss you bitch,
Len

Kara *Sigh

Hey K

So lately, I've not been able to sleep very well. I haven't even been taking my naps like you know I usually do! Ok that's a lie..most of the time I don't get a nap. Haha..you know how I need my rest. I miss you all the time, especially at night. I miss getting to call you late at night when I need to talk to someone...like at 3am like I used to. I called you the other night and it went straight to voice mail. I always didn't like it when you turned off your phone. Anyway, I wasn't expecting anything...I just wanted to hear your voice.

I don't know how else to say it. I miss you. Plain and simply, I miss you. We've been busy throwing together your party this weekend. I can't wait. I hope that you would be happy with how it turns out. I think you will.

Thanks for stopping by once in a while in my dreams to let me know you're ok. I love you forever.

-B

Live. Laugh. Love.

I miss you making fun of me and me making fun of you. I miss playing video games. I miss taking jokes too far. I miss being overly considerate of each other. I miss eating mozzarella balls and tomatoes and longanisa with vinegar with you. I miss taking pictures of you. I miss getting ready to go out with you. I miss your motivating messages.

I miss talking to you. I miss iChatting with you. I miss dancing with you. I miss laughing with you.

Most of all I just miss YOU.

Yesterday Laurie and I were talking about when people's "time" comes. And I believe that you did not go before your time. You lived such a FULL life, but I very selfishly want you back. Please don't ever appear to be any further than you already are. I like feeling that you're still everywhere, everyday, visiting everyone. I know when we meet again, it will be the most amazing reunion.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I hope you laugh hard today!

Goodnight <3